2017-06-07

Thoughts

To be here
Or not to be
Was never my question
I am right there
Where I need to be
That is my philosophy
I am fulfilling my dreams
Feeling lonely sometimes
But it is okay
Because I don´t know
Who I am yet

I am still searching myself

2016-08-11

Nowadays fairytale

Once upon a time there lived a man and a woman who met through Internet in one of the many chat rooms. In the beginning they talked about clothing, then about people  and finally about love.
The man, named Tauno,  asked a proposal to meet.  The woman, named Mare, accepted this and so they agreed to meet in the park Tammsaare at 6pm.
The woman, who had been alone for a long time, started to get dressed and put the make up on already 4 pm.  Tauno bought him Ferrari to seem richer although he already was. He had started small business which grew bigger as the firm became famous and started to bring profit. His business produced sport cars and the main clients were rich and famous people. Mare worked in a small business as secretary and earned 800€ a month.  Besides this, she had unnatural powers- she was medium.
Finally became the time to meet. They fell in love within the first sight. Right after when they saw each other, the tree began to fall down. Mare heard laughter when the tree became to fall and shouted „Look out!“ to Tauno, saving his life.
While Tauno thanked her and offered to take a ride with his Ferrari, Mare´s  phone rang.
 „ If you hang out with him, you will die,“ a woman´s voice whispered through phone. This scared her but she accepted his offer anyway.
They rode by the seaside where they looked at the sunset and the sea. Mare asked Tauno whether he had been married before. „ I was but she lost her life tragically in car accident couple of years ago,“ answered man with a sight of sadness in his voice and added „ I haven´t been in a relationship since then but when I met you, I felt that I have to take a chance with you.“
Mare, while listening , had recognized him. He was famous businessman Tauno Tuus whose wife passed away 4 years ago in car accident and to these women whom he met had some kind of accidents. So she said „You are the famous man who produces cars!“ Tauno´s face was filled with amazement and he joked „ Only now you remember! Woman, you have to marry me now!“ They both laughed about it. Mare thought about it and realized she should take the risk: „ Maybe in the future but you have to make things right with your late wife.“  Tauno was stunned and told Mare that this was not possible because she is dead.“  Mare told him she was medium and would help them to help her move on. For 10 minutes there was silence between them. The sun had already set and it was cold. They decided to back to the car and talk, after this they each went to own home.
The next morning all they could do was to think about one another. Mare laid in bed and thought about Tauno. Tauno ate breakfast and thought about Mare and the fact she was a medium. Suddenly his phone rang and it was Mare´s number. Only, the  caller wasn´t her.
 A woman´s voice whispered: „ Don´t you reckognize me, baby? I am your wife whom you married and promised to have and to hold for the rest of our lives.“
„ So you are the one who almost killed all of my employers. They weren´t my girlfriends but workers whom I payed for their job for,“ answered Tauno to his late wife, Merili, and continued „ honey, you passed away but I can´t be alone forever.“  Merili did not agree to move on.
At the same time while Tauno talked with Merili, Mare spoke to the ghost who lived in her house and had decided she had to help Tauno. Despite the fact she did not know where Merili resided, she felt the need to help him because deep inside she wanted to marry Tauno.
The same day, Tauno called Mare to ask for her Skype address. They talked all night long about Merili and planned how to help her to move on. Finally they decided to meet in 2 days to get through with this plan. As the day became closer they became nervous but when the day arrived, Merili had disappeared.
The couple waited for a month and when realized Merili wouldn´t come back, they married and had the children with unnatural powers.


THE END!!!!! 

2015-05-15

Luuletus

I am just a girl
You are just a boy
I am not a toy
and fly free like a bird
 
You know nothing about me
And I don´t open fully
But if you let me be
I share my thougths truely

2015-01-18

Life gets in our way.......

She is 19- years old and has zero life experience - at least she thinks that. This girl doesn´t know what she wants in her life but she knows on thing: she loves movies, books and theater. And of course genetics, DNA and biology. She tried to get in to university to study genetics and failed so she entered to vocational education centre to become a tour operator. She also wanted to go and try to get into media school but her father, who is her role model, told her she has to study what makes her rich in the future, not happy and she didn´t try. Actually, her father is still mad at at her that she didn´t go to university for money ( he was going to pay if she went to study biology). At this point she has no motivation at all and is happy to go home on thursdays (fridays are free days). She has no friends and spends most of the weekends with family whom she has to choose from and divide her time between them.
This all started almost 16 years ago. She just had a brother when her mom and dad broke up. Her father went on to live with a girl who was younger than him and she, her brother and mom lived almost three years alone. Their grandmothers looked after them when mom was out and overall they were joyous kids.
They got along with everyone and were friendly, they still are actually. The boy didn´t remember his father but the girl did so she was very sad because she hadn´t seen him awhile and she loved her daddy very much. She saw him when she graduated from kindergarten and then a few years she didn´t. The day she saw him was when she went to school and father stopped his car to pick her up. The girl was so happy she cried tears of joy and was sad, too ´cause she didn´t know when she is going to see him again but dad gave her his phone number.
By then the girl´s mother lived with a man whom she and her brother had to call "father" or "daddy" but she hated him because he yelled at her when she didn´t see faults in her maths´s homework and he was very strict. One day, when snow had almost melt, she got very angry at her mom and her "dad" so she took her bike and rode to her grannys ( father´s mom) who lived almost 12 kilometres from her apartement. Unfortunately granny wasn´t home and she got scared when her grandfather came to the door and she rode back home. Luckily this was a start for better because that summer she got to spend her holidays with her father. They went to Riga, Latvia and she helped him doing outside works in countryside, they went to mushrooming into their own woods and to sledge. They had a great time together and they bonded. When she was ten they went to Stockholm, Sweden to visit his sister and his girlfriend´s friend. Her father lost and gained many jobs, two of them were in Russia. At first he worked in Moscow and brought her Russian chocolates and when he worked in Jaroslav he gave her "Mamma Mia" DVD for christmas. He knew the DVD would make her very happy and he was right. When he worked for the company in Russia, he took her to his company´s summer and winter events and she was very happy.
He always gave her the most amazing birthday presents, too: such as mobile phone, radio, mp3-player, bike, concert ticket but the most expensive gift was a scooter which looked like real motorbike. She didn´t make scooter licence so until she got a driver´s licence she rode a year without licence because she could by the law. When she did her driver´s licence she failed three times but it was worth it because she can go where she wants and when she wants.

2014-08-26

Mees

Mees
Jälle istud sa kodus. Kell on pool neli, kas sa tööl ei pea olema? Muidugi, milleks käia tööl, kui naine käib. Ise saad rahulikult teleri ees istuda, Vikerraadiot kuulata ja kohvi juua. Raha, kui seda kord kahe kuu jooksul bussijuhina teenid, kulutad sa rämpstoidule mida pakud väikesele pojale, mõtlemata, et ta seda süüa ei tohiks. Mis siis, et tööl ei käi, naise autoga saad ju igale poole sõita, kui tahad. Ning õlavigastus on ka teiste süü, sina ju vabatahtlikult puu otsa ei roninud.

Kuid mees, mõtle, mis mulje jätad sa oma pojale? Kas sa tahad, et poeg elaks tulevikus samuti naise kulul? Ja arvesta sellega, et naine võib sind ühel päeval tänavale visata ning sel juhul ei ole sul enam midagi. Mida sa ikka kodus passid, mine tööle, tee seda vähemalt poja pärast.

Poem

Seitsme maa ja mere taga
kooguga ja vinnaga
kaunis kaevus eluvesi
mida tasub hinnata
 Mina olen tähtis mees
sest et  varjan lätte
nii et voolab vesi
otse mulle kätte
 Esimene mina olin
kes end ära pesi
tema, kes ei olnud teine,
tuli tasakesi
 Liikus õhk ja puudel
lehed võbisesid vaevu
võisin ühe ämbri lasta
tasakesi kaevu
 Hõbedaste kivikeste vastu
voolas vaikselt vesi
seal ei olnud kedagi teist,
ainult meie, kahekesi

2013-11-13

...........

See oli ta ema, kes teatas, et Donna isa on haiglas, sest toimus liiklusõnnetus ja isa on koomas. Donnal hakkas halb, Sam tundis tema pärast muret ja küsis: „Mis juhtus? Kas sul on halb?“ Ent ta ei saanud vastust, sest Donna hakkas nutma.Noored läksid Donna korterisse ja panid tähele, et uks oli lukustamata. Nad sisenesid tuppa ja kuulsid lastekisa ja vanemate inimeste kõnet. Sam jäi laste juurde, aga Donna liikus elutuppa.Elutoa diivanil lebas neiu õde ja õe kõrval istus ema, mõlemad nutsid. „Tere tütar, kus sa nii kaua olid?“ küsis ema. Donna vastas küsimusele küsimusega: „Kuidas teie olukord on? Kuidas isa end tunneb? Mida te minu korteris teete?“ Donna õde Nicky vastas: „Me olime lastega linnas, kui kuulsime hirmsat uudist. Nick sõitis autoga oma sõbrale külla ja kuna sinu korter oli lähedal, siis otsustasime siia tulla. Ma tean, et oleksin pidanud sulle sellest teatama, aga ma ei suutnud helistada. Kui ma sind segan, siis võin ära minna. Nick on ka juba kodus, ma võin ta järgi kutsuda. „Ei lähe sa kuhugi!“ lausus Donna. „Te võite siia jääda ja homme hommikul läheme isa haiglasse vaatama.“ Samal ajal astus Sam tuppa, kukil Nicky vanim tütar Emily. „Kes see noormees on, Donna?“ nõudis ema vastust. „Ema, kas mäletad Sami?“ „Kas see on Sam? Te olete jälle koos siis?“ imestas Nicky. Terve ülejäänud õhtu oli rahulik, kui mitte arvestada laste kisa. Kõik läksid hilja magama.Hommikul ärkasid nad vara, et end haiglasse minekuks valmis seada. Kui äratuskell tirises, olid esimesteks ärkajateks Nicky vanimad lapsed, kes kohe Sami äratama läksid. „Onu Sam, tule mängi meiega!“ palusid lapsed. Sam aga ütles tüdrukutele, et nad   parem hambad ära peseksid ja riidesse paneksid. Nende jutu peale ärkas ka Donna ning kui noored kahekesi jäid, vaatasid nad teineteisele otsa ja naeratasid. Donna küsis Sami käest murelikult „Mis saab meie plaanist uut elu alustada? Ma ei saa enne isa koomast ärkamist lahkuda.“ „Ma saan aru, Donna. Kuid olen kindel, et sinu isa ärkab üsna pea. Me võime ju oodata kuni su isa ärkab, minekuga ei ole ju kiiret.“ Sami sõnad panid Donna õnnest särama. Vahepeal olid kõik üles tõusnud. Ema valmistas hommikusööki ja teised panid end riidesse.Uksekell helises. See oli Nick, kes otsustas tulla naise juurde. Ta rääkis, et käis haiglast läbi ning sealt teatati häid uudiseid. Kõik liikusid elutuppa ja istusid. „Noh, mis uudis see siis on?“ küsis ema. „Jah, räägi juba!“ hüüdsid ülejäänud kooris. „Alustan heast uudisest, isa ärkas koomast. Kuid halb on see, et ta ei pruugi enam kunagi käia,“  jutustas Nick. Donna reaktsioon oli esimene: „Sul oli õigus, Sam! Kuidas sa teadsid?“ Sam vastas vaid napisõnaliselt „Lootus sureb viimasena, Donna.“ Kuid Donna ei kuulanud, sest mõtles juba tulevikule. „Tead mis, Sam, sõidame järgmine nädal ära,“ oli Donna entusiastlik. Sam nõustus tüdrukuga.